Wow. 2017 has been such a whirlwind. There is so much I haven’t shared with you guys, simply because I haven’t been blogging. I’ve just started ramping my YouTube channel again and I want to make a point to write more on here. Not that I want to share every nitty gritty detail of my life with the world wide web, but I do want to start sharing more from my heart. There’s much more to what I love about life that generally stays within the confines of my mind and does not ever get jotted down on the blog. The bad part is, I have new ideas all the time of things I want to share with you and time simply gets away from me! In 2018 one of my goals is to dictate how I use my time instead of being tossed about like a dinghy in the waves. Did I just use the word dinghy in casual conversation? Guess so. I have a video on this coming up later this month.
Becoming a mom has been one of the greatest privileges of my life. I cannot believe what a treasure this boy is. If you’re a parent you know exactly what I’m talking about. It’s surprising and at the same time feels so natural to be his mom that I honestly can’t remember what life was like before I had this precious boy to hold in my arms. My mother’s heart is already preparing for the process of letting him go, but thank God that process is 18+ years long.
Motherhood has changed me, mostly in subtle ways that only my heart knows, but it has changed me nonetheless. I’m more content, I have more peace about my body and less shame, and I have more patience than ever before. This process has taken me through every emotion and every fear, but has also allowed me to process through that stuff in such a meaningful way. Describing that process is really hard – words just don’t seem to suffice – but I can feel it, and hopefully some other mothers out there can relate.
Becoming a mom is such a refining process. It challenges you body and soul, but it also reinforces that life is an amazing gift and it makes you tougher and more loving and sacrificial than you ever thought you could be. Painful, yes, but incredibly liberating as well.
Weston, my boy, may we serve you well, not to put you on a pedestal, but to teach out things you’ll need to go out and be a kind and gentle man. A man who fights for those who cannot fight for themselves and loves with a love only God can bestow. May you become a brave and courageous person. And may you have a family of your own one day. I am so grateful God chose me to be your mom and Tyler to be your Dad. We love you.